recess is over

My next race is August 27th. That's nine weeks away. I really don't want to do it. I am dreading it. I am also like, what in the world is wrong with me?! Before The Princess I couldn't wait to get to the gym or the park to run. I craved it. Now I can not get myself out of bed in the mornings. I wake up in time but then I just lie there and I can't make myself get to the closet to get my workout clothes on. I just lie there. And there's only 9 weeks to go. I've thought about bailing on this race but it's in Michigan and I've committed to take my mom up there with us. I also have everyone up there looking forward to seeing me. Ugh. So I really don't have a choice. I really have to train. I really have to. Recess is over, dammit.

Crim

14 weeks til the Crim in Michigan with my cousins and aunts. ACK!!!!

derailed again

Seems like every time I swear I am going to get back into running and better nutrition something happens. Last week it was our cruise. I gained 5 horrible pounds. I did walk almost every day but I guess it didn't help much. This week I have been wanting to go and run in the mornings but I have woken up with sore throats the last two mornings. Next week we are leaving for another vacation.

I'm really nervous because I have that run with my cousins the end of August and the 1/2 in Nashville in September. I've got to get myself ready.

We did get our bikes and Rick and I went for a bike ride on Monday and I cannot tell you how proud I was that he was out there riding with me. He was exhausted but it was good.

So it's time to get that train back on the tracks. Starting tomorrow.

losing and gaining mojos such as they are

So, my fitness mojo is still gone. Or I should say, my running mojo is gone. I am very motivated for fitness or at least more activity. I've gone rock climbing, bike riding, some walking. Going horseback riding and maybe kayaking this weekend. So, I think it's just the running which has left me. BUT...I have registered for another half marathon in Nashville on September 24. And I have the Crim in Michigan the end of August, which is a 10 mile run, so I need to get with it.

It's been a week since I quit Weight Watchers and i have been eating like a starving pig but I got on the scale this morning and I have actually lost 2 pounds. LOL I have no idea how that happened but I'll take it.
So, my goals for next week are to get to the park at least 3 mornings and run. I would really like to swim some but running is my top priority. I read an article yesterday about how to get out of a running funk after a big race. It seems it is not at all uncommon for people to have difficulty getting back into it. and if I can figure out how to post it I will post the article here.

weight watchers

I'm quitting Weight Watchers for about the fifteenth time tomorrow. It's a waste of money since I don't really follow the plan. I know what to do. Why I don't just do it I have no idea. I have lost 18# since October which is nothing to sniff at but I went to the gyn last week and I am only 5 pounds less than I was exactly 1 year ago. Go figure. Hundreds of dollars later, constant dieting and only a net loss of 5 pounds. I should have listened to Leeann.

“Few things in the world are more powerful than a positive push. A smile. A word of optimism and hope. And you can do it when things are tough.”--Richard M Devos

It's amazing what 60 extra milligrams of Geodon can do for a person in just a matter of days. I have been thinking a lot about my blessed life today. I am more blessed than I deserve to be and happier ( except for brief episodes of craziness) than I have ever been.

total awesomeness.

Retirement...or not

Rick and I had been planning for years that we would retire in 2015. Then a few years ago, he said that he would retire in 2015 but that he still wanted me to work 1-2 days per week. Ok... Then a couple of years ago, he said he would retire in 2015 and I still had to work 2-3 days a week for 5 years. Ok...Then yesterday, he told me that no, he wasn't going to retire in 2015. He was going to wait to retire for another 10 years. Which means I will have to continue to work, doing what I am doing, for another 10 years. The thought of this makes me very sad. I don't think I can do what I am doing for 10 more years. I just can't. So now I am busy thinking about other plans.

I understand where Rick is coming from, I do. And I will be supportive of whatever he thinks we should do. I don't have to like it though. I need to figure something else out.